The other day I was reminded of a decision that I made deep in my spirit and that I am confident I will make over and over again for the rest of my time on earth.
When I look at my life, I see two possible paths I can take:
Path #1 – Safe. Predictable. Secure. Insured. It looks a lot like most middle class American lives.
Path #2 – Risk. Unknown. Adventure. Faith. A path that I fear will disappoint the expectations some people have for my life.
I don’t mean to say that the typical middle class American (Path #1) can’t live a life of adventure, risk and faith.
But I do know that for me – this wouldn’t be the case. I would rely more on my own financial security than on God’s provision. I would depend more on my health insurance than the healing power of God. For me, Path #1 leads to a boring life that wastes the precious time given to me on this earth. I don’t want store up security and knowledge only to gain nothing that will endure beyond this life.
I was reminded that no matter how tempting Path #1 can appear to be and no matter the expectations or plans that others have for my life…I will always choose the second path. I will always come back to those hunger pangs for the deep, dark waters where only the Lord can lead me. I reject the lie that wisdom only looks like a full bank account and a completely mapped out life. I am not promised tomorrow; I refuse to deny the adventure for today out of the fear of lack for tomorrow.
The God I serve is intimately acquainted with my comings and goings. He is keenly aware of my need. A life surrendered to him and entrusted to him is not foolish. It is the only secure place. It is the one true way to hold onto that which will last.
Therefore, my heart will always choose Path #2. I can’t see where it leads and I can’t determine each step of the way. But that is the beauty of this path. It does not lack vision but embraces obscurity for the sake of faith in an unseen God.
Our steps are made firm by the Lord, when he delights in our way;
though we stumble, we shall not fall headlong, for the Lord holds us by the hand.