If my life were like a TV Show, it would feel like a roller coaster at times, but always end each episode with feelings of love and gratitude. For example…
I had a little breakdown today.
It was the spilling over of a few days worth of inner tension and struggle that I had been ignoring. I tried to hide my tears at my desk in the office surrounded by people who ask how you’re doing and expect a genuine answer.
Finally, I texted my friend and got out as fast as I could. I barely made it to my car before my breath was consumed with sobs. I felt at the lowest point that I had felt in a long time. A feeling of incredible hopelessness, searching desperately for an escape. My friend listened and loved me so well.
I don’t know where it all came from but it hit me like tidal wave.
Only by the grace of God, I got myself up and moved forward. I still had to teach, I still had to work, and I still had to run sprints afterward. I had no other choice but to face the lies dead on and choose to believe what I was about to teach. Little by little, I started to see clearly. Hope and truth began to tower over the fear and shame until it was only logical to believe in God’s faithfulness.
Here is where the beautiful resolution came…cue theme music
I came home to PUMPKINMANIA. Several of my friends and I carved pumpkins and ate all things pumpkin to celebrate the coming of Fall and October. We displayed all of our pumpkin masterpieces on the stairs and sang silly spontaneous songs about this pumpkin season. We laughed and enjoyed the life that we get to share with each other.
It reminded me of an episode from How I Met Your Mother or Friends.
I couldn’t be more grateful for the people who go through the ups and downs of life with me. To many more TV Show endings to my days!