Tonight, I’m inspired.
Sadly it has been a little too long since the last time I was inspired. To be honest, it has been a little too long since I have done anything that really gave me life. It’s been too long since I last released and expressed the KINGDOM that lives inside of me. Since I last lived FULLY and FREELY in who I was made to be.
Yesterday, we ended a long workday with a two hour meeting. About halfway through, I was checked out and felt like I could have lost my mind. The meeting consisted of one thing after another that was being added to my job description. Details, logistics, processes, data…blah blah blah. Maybe now you can see why I checked out (and almost screamed).
I came home heavy and completely empty. I’m tired of operating out of my weaknesses. I’m sick of feeling like what I was made for is NOT the majority nor the priority of my job any longer. And the worst part was that I couldn’t feel God, I couldn’t hear clearly, I didn’t know where to go from here…I reached another end of my rope. (it seems there are several of those)
TODAY was different. Something rose up in me. Something supernatural happened in my spirit that couldn’t sit back and watch, but had to fight. I still don’t know what the Lord will speak to me about my job and my direction, but today my vision got a little clearer. Today I decided to dance on the chains of my circumstance, walk on the waves of the storm. Today I decided to sing out loud, and let my voice be heard with the song of victory.
It left me inspired to write, to believe, to hope…which is so much better than leaving me heavy, empty and lifeless. Where God will take me, I have no idea…but whatever is before me (details, logistics and all), HE is so worth it. I just want to be with HIM.
On the shores of my soul, I give you permission, to wash my tears away. Take all my disappointment, and fill me with joy once again.
I’m gonna sing out loud and let my voice be heard. It’s the song of victory. And it’s ringing in the earth.
On the top of my cage, I am sitting. Above the shame so lonely. Your kindness, it has lifted me to see the way that you see.
I’m gonna SING OUT LOUD and let my voice be heard. It’s the song of victory. And it’s ringing in the earth. Hallelujah! Hallelujah!